I have been a searcher all my life. I began searching for something to do to make my life worthwhile. Then I began a long time searching for knowledge; this has lasted a lifetime. The other lifelong mysterious goal that has avoided detection is a permanent sense of purpose. This has seemed impossible at times. Wherever I looked I only found confusion and irrelevance.
This can be very spiritually devastating for someone who prides himself on accomplishing whatever he has tried; of course, I had plenty of help in my achievements. My wife was not only on my side; she most often led the way. But, at the base of all is that whenever I felt void, whenever I felt that all was lost, I experienced a dynamic potential at the base of my quest. Not understanding this feeling, I often ignored it.
What I ached for was reason! What I implored all whom I met in my quest was an ability to lift those in need from their society-enforced exclusion from all that is necessary. With the leadership of my wife, I discovered direct contact with those who I was trying to help. I found a quandary. After a very short period of time, I did not know who was helping whom.
Those holding on to the bottom rung in society had a deep faith in God, much deeper than I have ever had. They taught me that at the base of all that happens is God’s Love. They taught me that the void that I thought was present in my life was not a void at all. It was an all-powerful force that I had to face. Once I faced this force, it stopped becoming a void.
It became what was important in my life; it was always present, but in my pseudo-intelligence, I ignored it. Now I don’t; now I recognize that the only thing that is important is my relationship with God. I have learned to accept and trust this Divine Presence in my Life.
Throughout my studies, I have noted that it was often the accused heretics that taught a personal, divine relationship with God. . . and respect for others. Jesus taught us to love one another as ourselves. I ask, doesn’t this loving one another mean sharing and respect. Are not the others all living creatures of God, including our earth? I cannot believe that Divine Faith includes the devastation of mankind and our planet. It is time we examine our true faith in Divine Presence.
©Russell Kendall Carter
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