Yesterday’s Musings

I meditate every morning before, during, and after I study the Bible readings for the day according to our Episcopalian study. This helps me settle into a day of love and forgiveness to begin my day. In addition, each day, I choose a passage or two to possible include in my writing for the day. Yesterday, it was “Open rebuke is better than secret love.”(Prov. 27; 5).

I’ll save the open rebuke until later; I’ve got too much to say about that at this time. It’s the love part that interests me with special interest on the secrecy, for today’s reading includes a cryptic reference in Ecclesiasticus,  “Blessed, those who will see you, and those who have fallen asleep in love: for we too shall certainly have life.” (11),

I don’t know what I was going to write yesterday; that was about a century ago. But today I know I have deep sorrow, deep remorse, for I have not lived up to the promises I made to myself and to others years ago as a young man just starting   life’s journey. I made mistakes of which I am not proud. And I tried to atone for them. I also did things for which I am very sure were correct, but handled the repercussions incorrectly, resulting in lifelong anger and hurt.

My life very much rebounds like the write of Psalm 37, “For I am a stranger in your house, A w like all my ancestors.” My mistakes are many as I wander from room to room. Those I hurt are no longer with me, so it is impossible for me to make amends now.            Nevertheless. I prayed that ABBA. Has let them know. Said I never met them any harm. And then I’d love them deeply. Still. Amen

And so, ends yesterday’s musings for today, may the love of God make your steps lighter with the birds singing your ears; where the sun always lights your way may the air always have the aroma of fresh irises. Have a good day.